She is hoping one day, you will find a reason to stay. she is hoping for your happiness. she wants you to know that she miss you so much. each day she is died. hiding the tears that is always threatened to run down. or a face that was salty because of tears dried out each time she cried. she is right here waiting that one day, you will showed up and hug her so tight. telling her that your life was chaotic since you left her.
i miss you so much my love. i never get tired of loving you. 🌺
An impromptu calligraphy gift that made my night. ending the night early. my health has not been in top shape this trip and the sharp pains have been unbearable at times (not to mention embarrassing as it takes time away from those taking time out of their day to spend with me), however, small things like this has kept my spirits up and reminds me of the more beautiful things in life.
running through each curvature and crevice of every letter brought to memory of an old writing: "i saw that you were perfect, and so i loved you. then i saw that you were not perfect and i loved you even more." #simplereminders#thankyoucn#calligraphy#saigon#imperfectperfection
Packing your hospital bag mum? remember to pack light with only the essentials. hospitals often provide most of the necessities like diapers and baby blankets.
some things to remember:
✔ cell phone and chargers
✔ birth plan and insurance cards
✔ a comfy going home outfit for mum and baby
✔ skin products and chapstick
✔ hair ties and brush
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I often write simple reminders to myself in times of doubt, fear, frustration, uncertainty, or anxiousness. i say a prayer to god to give me strength and patience. i take a deep breathe, let it out and let that feeling go because it's no longer mine to hold on to.
you're thinking, that is so much easier said than done. i hear your thoughts. i know exactly how you feel. but try it. not just once. try it a few times. it truly does get easier. the hardest part for me has always been when i have to give up the control to someone or something other than myself (i am a control freak). it's the moment when i have to release that feeling and take the scariest step forward into the unknown. i have plenty of notes to myself from when parker and i started planning our trip to new zealand.
i had an internal panic attack when parker and i talked about moving in 2017 instead of 2018. i thought to myself, you better get saving little girl. before i started dating parker i was a phenomenal spender and a terrible saver. i didn't have a dime to my name in a savings account. i thought i had a little under two years to not only learn how to save money, but to save enough money to move to new zealand. and then comes another bend in the road. i hadn't done much research into the cost of living in new zealand so i had no clue what to expect. i read blog after blog, and little by little my heart sank and i cried. not only is new zealand is one of the most expensive country's in the world, but for every new zealand dollar i made it was 70 cents to the united states dollar. i wrote in my journal, "beautiful girl, you were made to do hard things. have faith and believe in yourself." i fell asleep that night praying to god to help me find a way.
fast forward to today. we are living in new zealand! next time, you're telling yourself how it's impossible, write a note to yourself. take a deep breath, let it out and let those craptastic feelings go. i know it's not the solution to your problems, but it's giving yourself hope. sometimes, that's all we need.
Do you remember that song - don't stop, never give up, hold your head high and reach the top, let the world see what you have got... this song has been playing on and on in my head and i simply had to share this with you gorgeous mama's. let this be our mantra as 2017 comes to an end and gear up to welcome the new year. who is with me? #kensingtonmum