i had no idea this was in today's paper until someone told me. something i want to highlight and reiterate is this is not about me! recovery is a we thing! this isn't just my story. you can insert possibly thousands of names of veterans who have similar stories. there are most likely thousands of veterans who continue to suffer in silence. i am one of the fortunate ones. i am blessed with a wonderful family and support team and now get to be a voice for others who need or want help.
a huge debt of gratitude to those who have been part of my journey and continue to be a part of it. i wouldn't be who i am without my beautiful, amazing wife elisa and our wonderful children. they put up with my bs on a day to day basis. my parents john and laura have been beside me every step of the way (even when they didn't like me). my brother eric has also been a great supporter.
the herren project is an amazing group to work for along with all my fellow thp runs ambassadors. we are sharing our stories! we are working to breaking the stigma! we are raising awareness!
thank you to the local running community especially those who get up at crazy hours to join me.
this isn't suppporting me...this is about supporting our nation's veterans who may be struggling.
This the most realistic and accurate description of an ms patient’s daily life i’ve ever read. amazing brother, keep moving forward! #repost@hammerthewall with @get_repost
october 2018 marks 9 years since my diagnosis of ms. it’s hard to comprehend.
i have experienced the worst moments of my life since that day. some heartbreaking. some humiliating. some i did not think i would make it through.
the toll of an unpredictable, unseen degenerative disease is high. it is an unmatched mental challenge. nothing is more difficult.
imagine going to sleep every night not knowing if when you wake up you’ll be able to walk. use your arms. speak with clarity. control your b****y functions. think clearly. withstand the pain.
imagine every morning you wake up you spend the first five minutes going through a mental checklist of tests to see what still works. what feels different. what hurts and how much. and wondering why, knowing full well there is no answer. knowing there never will be.
you let it break you. eat you up. spit you out. over and over. until that single moment of lucidity, that bright moment of clarity in the dark place where your thoughts have learned to live, where you make the decision that determines your future - or lack thereof. it is either the first or last choice that matters. you choose. you. choose.
unless you’ve had that single, defining moment you won’t get it. you won’t understand how it changes you. perspective, priorities, plans - they take on new meaning. the smallest of moments, the tiniest of acts can carry so much more than before. you attack life with a passion most can’t grasp. it’s transformation. a realization.
i chose. and i sure as hell ain’t looking back. 9 years? here’s to the next nine. bring it. #hammerthewall#run#runner#running#ms#trailrunning#trailrunner#trailrun#marathoner#ultramarathoner#hokaoneone#howihammer#orangemud#injinji#mswarrior#multiplesclerosis#cleansportco#heartrunners#thisisms#humagel#shutuplegs#onemoremile#lemtrada#wahooligan
Working on the juice box for the fifty-dub (no idea what any of that means). .
5k at 26:27
then 10 sets of 10 squats @ 225 lbs.
after yesterday, my hips and back felt jacked up, but every time i complete something i say i will do, my cookie jar of memories of when i succeeded keeps growing.