Happy asian american heritage month! 🇵🇭 💛 i am so excited to be partnering with @officialpandaexpress and share my hyphenated story. when i first moved to the states, i was so scared i won’t be able to blend in with everyone because i felt i was different. over the years i realized that it’s totally okay to be different- that’s what makes you special & unique so you should embrace it. being asian american has taught me so much about myself these last decade and i am grateful that i get to experience both worlds! 🌿 #asianamericanoriginals#apahm#pandaexpresspartner
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Growing up, i never felt like i belonged or truly accepted in any group. i’m ethnically chinese but i never learned a chinese language so i was told “you’re not really chinese”. my family immigrated to indonesia, but because i’m ethnically chinese i wasn’t fully accepted as indonesian either. i hold both american and canadian passports but i don’t really fit into those cultures either. i’ve been told that i’m a cultural mess which is low key true. as a kid, i wanted to fit in so badly that i consistently rejected my family’s culture. it didn’t help that i was bullied for the food my mom packed, the fact my eyes looked different, my accent, and even my skin colour and it’s sad that it still happens to this day. those bullies made me feel ashamed as a kid for who i was but now, i just laugh at them. i am forever thankful that my parents ensured that i could speak bahasa indonesia, that i ate my food so that when i go home to indonesia, i can eat street food every day (because y’all know kupat tahu is only good if it’s from the side of the road) and lastly, to be proud of who we are and where we come from. i am d**n proud to be chinese-indonesian, to be a daughter of two hard working immigrants, and to be part of the asian community. ✨ • this post is late because i was low key waiting for my @phenomenal.ly shirt to post for #apahm (thanks @dorothywang for posting because i love mine) but may was asian american and pacific islander month and i’m happy to start seeing the representation that i needed as a kid and the celebration of our different cultures. we’re all #phenomenallyasian 💖
My name means to begin and to be open in chinese (开) and it’s a wonderful reminder everyday that my journey is just the beginning and i’m growing everyday, emotionally and physically. there’s a homonym that translates to being triumphant (凯) and i think there’s something poetic about that, a lesson in learning to love my transness and succeeding
lately i’ve been reached some mental and emotional limits that i’ve been taking some time to deal with. between a lot of changes in my life, i’m taking little steps in rehabilitating my mental health. getting antidepressants and sticking to my therapy appointments
i’m still falling off every now and then but healing isn’t linear and that’s a-ok 🌱
people often get irritated when asked, "what are you?" to be honest, i love answering, "my mother is thai, she's supes pretty." and i adore that when i go to thailand, the locals peer at me and say, "you look like thai people!" and flash those beautiful proud smiles the thai people are known for.
17.21 women...the book! it’s happening! i’m still pinching myself. so much gratitude and love to all of you for your unwavering support and enthusiasm for 17.21. i am incredibly grateful to all of the extraordinary women who contributed blurbs and essays for my proposal. without you, there would be no book. you are the modern trailblazers who walk among us—the legacy of our foremothers and auntie ancestors continue! i couldn’t have accomplished this without my wonderful agent cindy who took a chance on a retired fashion designer with a punk rock past and a predilection for microfiche and musty, old library basements. and finally, thank you to victoria at penguin books for believing in this project and making dreams come true! we are a trio of api women, children of immigrants—our work starts now, a book cometh spring 2021!
joan chen as josie packard, twin peaks promo, 1990 #1721womenbook#asianherstory#abouttime#aapi#apahm#aapihm#joanchen
Flashback to 2004 when i got my first drift car . . . a 1991 240sx. i wanted to do the sr20 swap immediately, but i was told that i should drift it with the stock ka motor so i could develop technique without relying upon power, so i could drift anything 🚗💨💨. so that’s what i did. til this day, that’s the best piece of advice i was given when starting out in my drifting / racing career 🌟
a month later i blew my ka engine at an event, which put me on the podium, and it was so worth it 😎