A few of my dad’s favorite photos that i took (that work for instagram). .
i didn’t think today would be as difficult as it is. it’s only been 8 months since i watched my dad take his final breath on this planet, holding his hand as his energy left, refusing to let go for the next 60 minutes. but, since that moment, thanksgiving, christmas, easter, both of our birthdays (mine may 22, his may 23) have passed, i made it through those, stoic, emotions in check... today feels different. i miss his voice, it was deep and booming, you could hear him across the room. i miss his handwriting, everything scripted in one of his dozens of fountain pens. he had a rotating slide show of my photos as his phone/ipad/mac wallpaper. when i discovered that, i realized he was actually proud of this path that i chose (though i’m considering a different one at present)... i miss a lot of things about him, even the annoying ones. and yes, i am thankful for all the memories. i’m lucky to have had a father like him but... i just miss him.
apologies for the ramble. it’s not as eloquent as i’d like, or in the way my father deserves but, it’s all i have right now. ✨
I know my limits, that´s why i go beyond them - serge gainsbourg.
• sedona, arizona.
looking forward to taking a few road trips this summer & fall. this time with better company (not sure who yet, but anything/anyone is better than previous company haha). anyone have any road trips planned for this year? where will the road take you?
You look like gold to me. • san francisco, california.
technically, (actually) she’s “international orange”, but she’ll always be golden to me. a few shots i’ve taken of goldie (golden gate bridge) over the years. which one is your favorite?
I let go, and the whole universe began to glow. • chiang mai, thailand.
one of the more memorable adventures i’ve been a part of. 11 days in thailand shooting with @beautifuldestinations for @theluxurycollection. the magical souls i met on this trip will forever be like family and the memories made, will never leave me. of course, one of the most incredible moments was during yi peng in chiang mai, thailand. this festival celebrates the full moon/lunar new year. yes, there are lantern festivals all of the place now, but this is the og, celebrated for hundreds of years. there is meaning behind it. the lanterns pay homage to buddha, who is the embodiment of purity and light. you let go of all that does not serve you during this time. you let go of all the things that keep you from shining like the celestial being you are. because when you do, you begin to glow.
The space between us.
• firenze, italy.
i was reminded of this shot the other day, and now, here we are... i ended up climbing the stairs of the arnolfo tower twice, which in total was +800 stairs. bright side: it’s an excellent glute workout and a fantastic way to justify another scoop of gelato, and/or more pasta. even better, the view you of the santa maria del fiore you’re rewarded with. trust me you will not be disappointed, especially if you make it for a tuscan sunset. ✨
We’ll find each other in this vast universe. maybe we already have. • sequoia national park, california.
it’s wild to think that all the trees you see in this photo are actually some of the largest in the world. the giant sequoia. precious gentle giants. they remind you that nature is so much bigger than all of us. this universe, this world, is so very vast. i, like john muir, want to get a good look at it all before i go.
now, if you want to know my experience on this particular trip,and a few others, go back a few posts. photos only tell a fraction of a story.
This could be beautiful
• ha long bay, vietnam.
i took this almost exactly 6 years ago with a nikon d3000. i’m also 100% sure it’s a jpeg and not a raw file... but in the end, if you know how to set up a shot (i knew basics from photography classes when i was 8 & 15), and how to edit properly (an art i am constantly evolving), you can take a beautiful shot with a camera that has less megapixels than your phone. the proper tools for your level of expertise help, shooting in raw makes a huge difference, and make life easier 100%, but at the end of the day it’s the person behind the camera, and the person editing that make the photo. .
with that, here’s a shot from a gorgeous sunset, floating on a junk (it’s a type of boat), amongst the beauty that is ha long bay, vietnam. i was on day 30 of a 35 day trip through southeast asia and this moment of peace was just what i needed to power through the final few days of travel. mother nature giving unconditionally.
As another journey around the sun ends, a new adventure begins.
• great wall of china
📷: @mitchell_mullins .
how do i put the past 365 days into words? i’m not even sure where to begin. it’s been a year that’s for sure.
but rather than give the negative, or sad moments another thought, i’m focusing on the divine moments. throughout this past year, i’ve met so many incredible human beings (including mitchell, who took this! yay lil’bro!). people who reminded me of the beauty i hold inside and out. new friends i can’t imagine my life without. people who unexpectedly walked into my life, shared magical moments with me, and made my heart smile. family and friends who continue to be there for me, even though i’m constantly all over the globe and rarely see them.
speaking of, i traveled to corners of this planet familiar and unfamiliar; adventured, conquered fears, laughed, cried, felt immense joy, super awkward, & worked my 🍑 off. i look forward to the next adventure (partner in crime appreciated).
... and, while i am in no way ever going to be the wisest person, or without flaws, i choose to constantly grow & learn, l i v e this life more, l o v e more - dream bigger, and give with all my heart. i commit every day to letting go of the things that hold me back and holding on to the ones that set me free.
because, the beauty of it all is in the journey.
adventure isn’t adventure if it’s not a little bit messy.
and reality is so much more interesting than living happily ever after.
so, here’s to another year of growth.
becoming something more beautiful
than i once was.
thank you all for being part of this great, strange, wild ride, my beauties. i appreciate you more than you’ll ever know.
In my sky at twilight.
• mystic, connecticut .
been on a roll posting sunsets as of late... but, honestly, i don’t know anyone who has ever complained about seeing yet another, gorgeous evening sky. so here we are.
In the quiet light.
• napa valley, california.
growing up in napa valley meant that my childhood was spent surrounded by an abundance of grape vines. funny enough, i don’t take many photos of the valley when i visit home. this shot is one of the few that exist, and it was super lazy because i only had to cross the street from my parent’s house to capture it. maybe next time i visit, i’ll make it a point to properly capture the valley.
There is no end. there is no beginning. there is only the infinite passion of life. - fellini.
non c'è inizio né fine, esiste solo l'infinita passione per la vita. - fellini .
like so many others, italia is a country has a special place in my heart. part of my family is from a city south of roma and the island of sardegna. italian was also the first foreign language i learned at an intermediate/advanced level. it’s a mild bummer that the language isn’t spoken as widely as other romance languages, because i love speaking it... but cosí è la vita.
i have an abundance of beautiful memories in this country. including this awe inspiring sunset in firenze. no wonder the great masters gravitated towards this magical place. the desire to capture & experience its beauty is strong. .
(bonus: slide over for the full image)
I like that i can feel you now.
• sequoia national park.
i was going to talk about what went on during this particular trip to the sequoias but i decided that i do not want to give that person another thought, or anymore power. what i can say is that sometimes it takes a huge loss to remind you of what you care about most. it can wake you up and make you recognize that you don’t deserve horrific treatment from a toxic person. it can remind you of your worth, that you’re priceless, and you don’t have to spend another second being negatively treated. you don’t have to spend another moment being verbally abused, emotionally abused. you can get off the roller coaster this person put you on. you can move past the lies this person told about you.
it took 3 months after this to be able to forgive myself for accepting so much less than i deserved for a year and a half. but when i did, it was so incredibly freeing. letting go, gave me something priceless. it gave me, “me” back - a loving, giving, beautiful, honest, caring, witty, curious, sometimes sarcastic, always up for an adventure, strong, goddess, who doesn’t settle.
it’s mental health awareness month, but your mental health is important 24/7/365, not just for 31 days. it pains me that there is still a stigma around therapy and improving one’s mental health. taking care of your body is ok, but for whatever reason taking care of the thing that runs your whole body 🧠 is a sign of weakness. yet, when you strengthen your mental health the rest of your body follows.
so, if you’re going through something, know you’re not alone. seeking help, reaching out, is a sign of strength. and there are so many resources at your disposal, you simply have to look. when you do, and put in the work, you’ll discover the divine, lush creature that you are. i promise.