From east texas to american vogue, february 2019.
one of the things i am learning with age is that sometimes life hands you moments that you can’t quite understand while you’re in them, but that become incredibly clear in time. i didn’t know when we shot this picture during one of the most chaotic moments in my life that it would mean as much to me as it does now. what was a quick but nonetheless very exciting day in the fall is now a gorgeous moment etched forever in time, helping to erase some of the ugliness of the past few months, and gently nudging me to remember that it was beautiful, and it will be again. i’m grateful that i have it, and thankful for those that made it.
starring my mom, my grandmother, my fiancé.
thank you to my sweet friends @lilyaldridge, @joansmalls, @bellahadid, @lovegrace_e for being a part of this day and taking time out of your lives to fly in from near and far.
thank you ever so kindly to @voguemagazine, @stephen.shore and @alex_jordan_harrington ❤️
Because of you, our pre-fall 2019 trunkshow on @modaoperandi has been extended! there are only a few extra days left to pre order this collection direct to your doorstep. i’m so proud of this collection. in many ways this year has been about going back to square one, revisiting ideas from my first collections that i now have the knowledge to execute better, and mixing them with a little bit of who i am now. the cleanliness and the lines, classic cornerstones of our brand from the beginning are infused here with a bit of ease and sport. i’m so overwhelmed with joy that so many of you have responded so well to it and shopped it like you have. seeing what you respond to let’s me know where to go next, let’s me know how i can be better, allows me to revisit and revise. you are my road map and reason for driving! thank you so much. 💕 📸: @paul_maffi mixed by @zackyliciouss
For the better part of the last 3 years i have asked jessy to take me to antelope canyon honestly like once a day, and guess what, he finally did. so, here’s a jessy appreciation post at antelope canyon. ❤️
For the last few new years vacations we haven’t been with stella because hawaii doesn’t allow dogs (wtf?) so this year we decided to try something new so she could come and boy am i glad we did because this was the most beautiful way to start a new year and watching her happily run free through the snow is such a metaphor for how i’m approaching 2019 y’all ❤️
At the end of 2018 i am 34 years old, 35 pounds over my goal weight, missing a good amount of my hair and wearing many new wrinkles. i am alive, i am loved, and i love. i am a version of happy that has no connection to “things” and at times is unfamiliar to me because it is steeped so deeply in appreciating all the things that i had no appreciation for in my younger years, but that i know now are essential to sustaining every fiber of my being. i am living a smaller more purpose driven life filled with only those that i love unconditionally and who i undoubtedly know feel the same. 2018 was a year that i thought might break me, in fact many times it did. it was grossly ugly as it was happening, and as all things are, tonight with a glass of wine in hand and some reflection, it’s oddly beautiful. that perfect storm of everything i’ve ever dreamed of finally coming true and my worst nightmares rushing in at exactly the same time. but here’s the thing about perfect storms, if you survive them and after they bring you totally to your knees, the only place to go from there is up, and you’re always a little bit stronger. i did, and i am. this year i dreamed bigger than i ever could. i put on two shows that i am very proud of, we expanded our business to four collections, we told stories and created images that had heart and soul, we launched collaborations that gave back to younger kids like myself, we dressed women privately and publicly that i am proud to know, and i started a new job on a tv show (!) all of those things are thanks to many women and men who so selflessly devote themselves to my crazy dreams, and whom i love very dearly. no man is luckier than me to have friends and family from around the world that so seamlessly come together and rally during good times and bad, of that i am completely sure. this year my sister was married, my mom got sick, children were born, and through it all, a tremendous love and bond was revealed. and lastly, i ended this year the same way i started this year, next to a great guy that i don’t deserve, saying i love you, and knowing that it’s both true and absolutely all i need. it doesn’t get much better than that. ❤️ #2018